No one checks this so let's have a pity party...
I'm letting it all rip because I can't hold it in any longer.
I hate this feeling of lost contentment.
I feel blinded.
I feel used.
I've fallen hard and fast and I'm scared.
My mother has to get a second job and its not like she has time for the first one she has.
My brother won't find a job so he's living off my parents.
My dad still has trouble talking since his stroke and it just makes it anger occur that much faster.
My uncle Blaine has leukemia and no I don't know how far along he is only that he is in some research group so it's all paid for because its not like he could afford treatment. But none of that settles my mind as to HOW he's doing.
I don't sleep.
I don't care.
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That's tough times your going through, I know how you feel. Especially about your uncle, my uncle was sick with cancer a few years back, and it was really tough on all of us, but you should think about how much you love him and try to spend alot of time with him, you're going through tough times- but what he's going through is way worse. We all feel lost, that's how life is, but even though we navigate through life in a dark abyss there's always that promise of beauty at the end of that tunnel of confusion and loneliness, I myself am still looking for my treasures in life, but hang in there. Sometimes the only reason we are alive is because we think others would be distraught by our absence. We all feel used and confused and in the dark, even though we might not look like it.
Hey. Me again. You don't even know me, but, I left a note in your website guestbook. Did you see it?
It was real simple, but I really wanted to tell you.
Jesus loves you.
Heh, you probably think I'm some wierd phsycho freak out to mess with your head. But seriously, I'm telling you, you might find the answers your looking for. Will you do something for me? Pick up a Bible, and start with John 3:16.
If you're interested, e-mail me and I'd be glad to answer any questions, K?
God bless. Fel.
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